Thursday, May 19, 2011


Howdy Y'all!

This weekend Tony and I are traveling to Knoxville, TN to meet the birth mom of our future daughter.  This is just deja vu for us - we have already done this once and we are hoping for better results.  My friend Laura bought me the coolest necklace for Christmas with mine and Tony's birthstone and I decided it would be a cool necklace to give to Ariel.  This is a necklace that represents Ariel's birth month and Harper's too.

I have been emailing with Ariel all week - and finding out we have so much in common.  She says that I have put her at ease that she has picked the right family, but I still have FEAR that she will change her mind.  What if it happens again and my heart can't handle it?

I bought a tutorial online on how to make bows - and I have been testing my skills this week.  But, of course, I FEAR that we won't have a baby girl to wear all these bows.

My mom is so excited to have more grandchildren and has been going crazy buying for Harper, but again I FEAR that there won't be a little girl to wear all these beautiful things.

My friends and sister are planning a shower after the arrival of Harper, but I FEAR that all their plans will be for not.

I FEAR that our hearts will be broken again and I am not sure how we can handle it again.  But, I know in my heart that we have the best friends that will help us limp along if the worst happens.

I am trying to think of Bible verses that will help me out in all my FEARS...

The Lord is my light and my salvation--whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life--of whom shall I be afraid? (Psalm 27:1)

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. (Deuteronomy 31:6) 

For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you. (Isaiah 41:13)

We would appreciate your prayers especially this weekend and over the course of the next month.  Please pray that I let the FEAR go and enjoy this month before our daughter gets here.  Please pray for Ariel and her dad that we will be having dinner with on Saturday night.


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