What is the most nerve-racking thing you have ever done? Last night was probably tops on my list...we met Sarah, the birth mom for dinner. Before dinner, my hands were shaking and I felt like I was going to puke. The butterflies in my stomach were doing a whole gymnastics routine...it was no bueno.
We got there after Sarah and her sister - and she saw me and called my name. As soon as she said my name, all the butterflies went away. Thank goodness!!! I didn't want to get sick at the table. :) Our adoption specialist at the agency told us that we may be at dinner for an hour or so. I took it as a good sign when we first looked at the time - it had already been THREE hours. We just talked and laughed and exchanged gifts.
Sarah gave us two Willow Tree Angels to represent her and our new family. One is a pregnant lady - and the other one is a mom, dad and baby. These will be something that we will keep forever. She is also working on a book for Kinley when she is older that is about her life, her pregnancy and her decision on why she chose adoption. We gave Sarah the heart necklace I showed you all a few weeks ago. We also got her a card and wrote what the heart necklace means to us and how thankful we are that she is giving us the chance to parent her child.
Right before I went to sleep last night, I heard my phone 'ding' with an email. It was an email from Sarah - and my feelings of a great dinner was exactly right. Here is an excerpt of her email to us...
"I just read your card. It is beautiful and something I will treasure always. I enjoyed getting to meet you tonight and know that I have made the right decision. Kinley is going to get to grow up with so much love from so many people. Her parents are fun loving happy people and I am so happy that I could give her that. I put my baby first and I will never regret this decision especially knowing she will be well loved and cared for. I believe everything happens for a reason....
...Thank you so much for being parents to my daughter. For the first time in the last few months, I will go to bed at peace knowing she will be okay."
It was so reassuring to receive this email - now, we are just ready for Kinley's arrival tomorrow morning. Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers - and I love how you all have been following Kinley's story. We are so blessed to have so many great people in our lives.